yeah so.

yeah so the show went off without a hitch. I think things are wrapping up, or they're just beginning, who knows. It was nice to be around a bunch of friends anyway, it was almost like a threw a party without any of the effort, in the party planning sense anyways haha.

Besides that...i have another portfolio presentation on may 1st of my digital works, gah, that is gonna take me allll week. Hopefully i can pull that one out of thin air. 

I never realized how nervous i would be displaying myself so willingly at the mercy of my peers, it was somewhat liberating.

and still in all this, i feel conflicted, the future is so uncertain and that is so good, and that is so freightening. The world is my oyster, why does that sound so much more intimidating than it did four years ago. Maybe because now i'm tied. Maybe because now my heart is invested in things that are uncertain. Constant nervousness, constant willingness, constant fever. 

i have such a yearning for good conversation.

crap...i have to go...

more later.