impossible

its funny to me now the things that used to seem impossible to me. I never thought i'd run around naked on a rocky beach in texas. I never thought i'd get a liscence. I honestly remember having the thought that i could never talk to the three most beautiful girls in the seventh grade without vomiting or passing out. Now, i can talk circles around those girls. I never thought i could run a mile, i can run several, and then some. I never thought i'd leave you. I never thought i'd love you. I very specifically remember thinking that i would never make it to the fifth grade, i thought they looked huge! and scary! look at em now. Everything in ahead of me that i cant seem to wrap my head around, i can never do this i wil never do that. Its only that i havent yet, and nothing else. But i can, and i will. I am such a differnt girl from the goofy adolescent version of myself, but in some ways i have never changed. I am so immensly differnt from this last year! these last five minute even! never getting comfortable, and yet so comfortable in that. The things i find to rest on are good friends, even the ones that get on my nerves, even the ones so incredibly differnt from me. I dont think most people realize how incredibly much they mean to me. Im so filled with love for people that drive me nuts all the time, and i feel really really good about that. It makes me feel like ive done somethign right.

my mom wants a senior portrait of me. I took my own, and its cheesy, and its ALOT harder than you think. but mostly the outtakes were what intersted me. I'll keep it here, in the hope that i can look back on it and remember how incredible life was, and hopefully realize how incredibly differnt i am from now.