geez, it seriously hurts thinking about college. i miss it so much, the people and places and weather and everything stupid. for real, it hurts when i think about it, probably more than it does most people i think, it sucks, it feels like someone broke up with me or something. I Just miss everything, how it felt like summer most of the time, and how the wind howled outside of my apartment, and everything about my apartment, and erin and jen and jess and everyone. The art building, pianoman, gah, just, everything. The bear trail! and the smell and the feel of belonging there at that moment, and free reign to create, our wine holder, our wine, the ferrets (yes even them) hunter and kelsey, all the theater people, registering for classes, terry and jos, just dumb shit. that piano in jame's apartment and making quac everyday, the avocados taste differnt in texas i think. I miss the late night chats with jess and making eggs at 2 am and then the time she spat milk on me becuase she laughed so hard. and that party we had where everyone went insane included me, and i woke up in tie dyed dress. god i jus miss everything. every single second of the last year of college was exquisite, even teh times i spent feeling crappy felt so damn good. I know i skip aroudn alot and i know i will in the future, but i hope i get comfy enough in a place soon, enough to know it like i knew waco, and enough to call it home. I cant wait to settle, but i wont settle. you know alot people take things for granted and complain about them until they are gone, but i never complained about being in college, i mean i had my greivances but i loved fucking everythign about waco, even the nasty and stupid things. That felt so much like home, the first home i have ever really wanted to hold on to. And although i am sure it was time to go and is time to go, god, i miss it so bad it hurts. I really think i just miss the people really, and the heat, i miss the heat almost as much as i miss the people. friends make a home i think.