dont try to fix it

Im always tryin 'ta fix everything that comes my way.
Always tryin' to tend to every bodily need and spiritual satisfaction, in constant pursuit of perfection and comfortability in mind, body, soul.
Elizabeth gilbert wrote this passage in eat pray love in which she describes a medetation in her study of yoga. She explains how mosquitoes are biting her and she has every urge to itch it but she doesnt, forcing herself to realize she neednt cater to each and every discomfort.
Mr. Prox thinks its okay to be hungry, and I agree. Its okay to be uncomfortable, its actually kind of freeing to realize it. It feels good to just say, hey, i feel like shit today, im scared, im depressed. It makes it easier to laugh about, which makes it easier to solve, which doesnt breed repetition.
Okay so ill go ahead and say it then and then be okay with it.
I dont know what i want, except to learn, and to have good friends.
And my parents age scares me, the thought of it has always scared me, and its settling in now into a reality. I dont want to see them get old but i know i have to. Its very unsetting, and i know, that someday, I will have to get old too. I hope it works out okay for me. I dont like the thought of being more competant than my parents. Its sort of makes me appreciate them more right now, i mean, they drive me up the fucking wall and we have almost nothng in common, and they have personality flaws and i have sensitivities, but really, so does everybody. Aint nobody special enough to claim they wont let you down, what more, grind your last nerve. But anways, were all we got, and im okay with that. I could have it alot worse. I pretty much like who i am, and Im really lucky although i feel down lately. And although i cringe to admit it, i have fun with my parents sometimes. Maybe I was meant to spend this time with them. Maybe ill be grateful for it someday.