always and only are very strong words

its always fun to go back and look at the way you were. I was funny. I am funny. but mostly i really just enjoyed this line from a 2006 journal entry today:

"first trys and times are fleet-footed hussies, and second reactions are made of character, made of stone"

You once wrote me a letter in 2004. You probably didnt know this but i kept it, not just this, but cherished it. I'm know that nothing was supposed to become of that letter, but you should know that from time to time i take it out, and i read it, slowly, and then a few times more, and that it still makes me feel like i really deserved everything that i got. And it is still, one of the best compliments, and one of the best letters that i have ever received. And wilson knew it too.

you know what? i would do helena bonham carter, i would, there, i said it, thats right.

also damn, she is really really pretty, and has great taste in lemonade.

tomorrow, im gonna gesso, im gonna dance, im gonna get coffee, and im probably gonna think about you.