Hmm apparently mei you blackberry in China...and mine is completely fucked. So if anyone should need me by phone, i may or may not be reachable for a while in that capacity, which is probably for the better cost wise, but it depends on how long i go before i cave and buy a phone here. Ill let you know.
In health news, all is safe. I went to the doc and she seems to think everything is normal so thats a relief, however, is was an expensive peace of mind....good greif out of pocket healthcare overseas...make sure your insurance will reimburse you if you plan to do this by the way. aye oh.
Lately things have been enjoyable but also stressful, im bracing myself for whats to come, the next few months are gonna be nuts, and i still really have no idea exaclty what ill be doing when, i do however have a 230 dollar credit at delta to use at my leisure, so im sure that will come in handy. woo-ha!
On saturday i went to koala and fi gave me a hug, and we just didnt let go, for whatever reason, and we just swayed while hugging for about 20 minutes and talked into each others ears, then some other people joined in, we basically started a middle school dance in a bar, it was weird, but awesome. Im not really sure why we started doing it, but i didnt really care, i suppose we hugged for everything. We hugged for all that we wanted to say and couldnt or didnt want to. For andrea leaving, for ourselves, for the realization that i wont see both of them very soon, for our own personal crises and for own personal lonliness and for our own individual happiness. i also realized that Fi is some kind of Confucius. I swear to god someone should write "the tao of fi" sometimes she says things that are just so on its ridiculous..."just do whatever you want youre gonna die in 50 years or whatever anyways" "i swear to god there would be no problems if everyone just hugged all the time" "I have no idea whats going on but lets do it" "well just make an appointment, geez" Somehow here perspective on life just kind of pushes me to do things that i lack, and that is what really good friendship is i think. It was sort of a big bang for andrea who is leaving at the end of this week ( tears) Fi and I are actually meet her tonight to shoot the shit before she ships off home to the Philippines and then to Thailand to start school, and ultimately new york to apprentice. Fi and Drea...something tells me i havent seen the last of them, fingers crossed.
Also on saturday we went with our friend "alex" to what we could tell from what he was saying was to dance...but in the translation, we didnt realize we werent going to like a club to dance, but to a studio space for his crew "losstuntown". So we went into some random opening in a wall off the street and ended up in a crowded room of young chinese b boys and one b girl...called brenda who was only about 17, it was basically a break dancing free-for-all, everyone was smoking, one guy was riding a bike, and i definitely improved my chinese a bit. Of course alex was the best there, we saw some great battles and then went to chi fan (eat). Yea, im speaking chinglish now.
Im still really unsure, and am having money woes, but overall happy despite the growing void where you and you should be that i keep suppressing.
Ohhh bathing suit weather, and comfort, and sleep, and sovereignty, how i miss miss miss you baby.
my hair is longer, my phone is fucked, my life is inching along, and my mind is at ease, however much it can be.
phew. cant wait for a rest. Sheme Shuo "roller coaster" in Chinese?
-wo ( in the third tone)
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